I can't drag myself through this day?

I am alone 24/7. Been sick for a long time now and people I used to know have removed me from their existances. They have their own little bubbles of happiness and I have no place in it. Been almost 3 years since my last incoming phone call that wasn't a bill collector or telemarketer. That last call was December 24th, 2008. I've tried reaching out and grasped only at empty air. I don't blame them. This is my problem not theirs. I cannot drag myself through another day. It is 10am. It is the last 10am I will see.